I am a private person by nature. I always have been. I ‘m not shy or timid but I am reserved. I can be the life of a party as long as it’s light and fun but I’m not one to get to deep with others outside of my family. I’ve always been this way and it’s never been much of a big deal. Then one day a thought swept into my heart, “build doors not impenetrable walls.” I had just woken up so I laid in bed for moment wondering “where did that thought come from and why?” Either way I brushed it off and went on with my day.
As the weeks and months progressed I began to feel a longing to spend more time with my extended family and with my church family/friends. I was asked to serve in the children’s ministry on Wednesdays and Sundays and my default answer would have been nope! But again I felt this overwhelming sense of longing to give of myself to others so I said yes.
I’ m actually putting myself out there. I’m accepting the invitations and doing the uncomfortable things. I give all of me and expect nothing in return yet I receive love, joy, relationships, experiences and fullness of life. And you know what? I kind of like it. I want to live a full life. It’s funny though because in my most recent experience it’s when I am most empty because I’ve given of myself to others that I actually feel most full.
So what’s the difference between a door and impenetrable wall? A door can be open and shut at any time. Everyone knows it purpose it and isn’t afraid to knock and ask to be let in. A door can be left wide open for as long as it needs to be and can be shut when privacy is needed. Its function is vital for people entering and exiting a certain place
An impenetrable wall is like a fortress that can’t be passed through or entered. It’s a structure of protection and self-preservation. Its function is to keep people in and others out.
If there is anything the year 2020 has taught me it’s that we weren’t meant to be alone. We need community and we need each other. Letting others into our lives can be a little daunting especially if we’ve been hurt by others before but I honestly believe relationships are worth the risk.
In the book of Ecclesiastes Chapter 4, King Solomon says: 9 Two are better than one, because they have a good return for their labor: 10 If either of them falls down, one can help the other up. But pity anyone who falls and has no one to help them up. 11 Also, if two lie down together, they will keep warm. But how can one keep warm alone? 12 Though one may be overpowered, two can defend themselves. A cord of three strands is not quickly broken.